Though Mad Men concluded beautifully it’s still hard to move on. Much like it’s always been hard for Don Draper to truly move on. Zing! Don, of course, has repeatedly shown great aptitude at appearing to move on but his frequent visitations into his past, to his old loves, and his old lives, pretty much suggest that he will never really be anything but someone trying to hide in an identity that’s just a little too big for him.
But Don is smiling! He made a Coke ad for McCann-Erickson! Okay, okay, yes, it does seem that perhaps Don has recognized at least part of who he is and has learned how to manipulate that aspect of himself to achieve a “modicum of control” over his own destiny. Good for him. But what am I supposed to do now that there’s no more of him to watch?
For eight years I watched Mad Men with near religious fervor. Other than Community, which has drastically changed, Mad Men was the only show in my queue that I began and ended in real time. In other words, I started watching it as it aired and kept up with it as it aired. There’s never been an occasion for a first-time Netflix-style binge. In many ways, that alone made the show special for me. I expect that a binge viewing of Mad Men would not create the same feelings of remembering and nostalgia that a prolonged better-part-of-a-decade climb did. After all, Anna Draper mentions that her husband (Lt. Donald Draper) wanted to marry her sister, who “looked just like [her] but with two good legs,” and many episodes go by, only for us to see oh hey, Anna Draper’s sister, who does indeed look just like her with two good legs. Freddy Rumsen disappeared at the beginning of season two only to return several more times. As I have always put it, Mad Men always tricks you into thinking that its forgotten something when, in fact, it’s just waiting for the right time to punch you in the soul. (A moment for Sal, please.)
I’ve always expected that this was how Don himself lived life. Every time he thought something was put away, it came roaring back. Usually his feelings. But possibly also his concern that he might be found out for being the deserting traitor he could rightly be called. (This element generally being used to trace the emotions more than the plot.) The visual and skillful, colorful, vintage-period shots were perfect for the messages being traced but the true artistry of Mad Men has always been in the idea that it reflects a life. Characters don’t “do” much but a lot happens.
As I sat to finish watching the finale via Amazon Instant Video on my Roku player, I realized that when I started watching Mad Men in 2007, Netflix Instant was mostly a fever dream of a couple dozen bad made-for-tv movies and television episodes and my original means to obtaining MM episodes was through a $60/month cable subscription that I kept for Comedy Central, FX, & AMC. There were no Roku players. There was no AIV. I couldn’t use my Prime subscription to catch up on back episodes. Any missed episodes had to be retrieved from OnDemand services. In many ways, that recognition journeyed on with me as I thought about the show itself. I sat with it for nearly a decade, a time during which Android and iPhones came to power, a time during which Breaking Bad came and went (2008-2013), and a time during which the United States saw ever more economic despair and divisiveness in politics. Maybe it’s a form of escapism to sink into the perils of someone else’s life, to try to work out fictional problems with hope and finger crossing, but I’m still going to miss it.